Re-focus

I've been uber negative and irritated lately. I hate it. haha...I'm irritated with being irritated. ok not funny. But anyways, there is a strong possibility that tonight that will end. I have a chance to honestly share my frustrations with a person and this could be a chance for me not to have to keep it bottled up anymore. I don't want to fight...so a lot of my venting will take place in a journal- not online =). Maybe this will help, I don't know. It needs to be done. Because my view of her has been distorted by my frustrations that keep growing and growing the longer I keep them insided and as I process them mentally over and over again. And that's not right, I don't want to have this warped view of things. So I'm gonna speak a little peace, as gently as possible. Besides that...I need to pray. A lot. For a patience and a positive outlook, because currently I get frustrated over the stupidest things. And how am I supposed to be showing God's love to people if my first reaction is to be irritated with what they are doing? Yup, definitely need to work on that.

I'm so ready for Spring Break! I'm gonna party it up in...Oklahoma? Yeah, it's gonna be totally sweet. I get to go through states that I've never been to. And I get to see Nikki. She's rad, and filled in as my roommate last year. So I'm really excited to see her. I miss making lame videos with her. We'll see what we can come up with in the few days I'll be there!

I'm officially ready for this semester to be over. Well, I think I was officially ready in September, but who's counting. I'm like so completely drained. I've been more "studious" this past year than all my other years of college combined. I'm almost done...just a few more papers, one or two tests. But I'm so numb that it hasn't really sunk in yet. Weird, but give it time. I'm not exactly complaining that all this work is going to be over soon.

Today was the birthday of one of the boys in our class at church. Jen and I made cupcakes, which he ate like he was just turning one, even though today was his 4th b-day. I didn't know eating a cupcake could be that messing. Frosting everywhere: all over his face, hands, up his nose. It was cute.















Alright...resume time! Woo hoo!